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[kiss_evilgoodbye]

I'm a vampire Slayer.

Two-thirds of my more intense relationships? Have been with vampires. Half, if you count Sam. Which ... I should probably do. Count Sam.

Anyway.

I lost my virginity to a vampire, after which he lost his soul and proceeded to come after all of my friends in a way of trying to destroy me. I'll admit, it kind of screwed me up. I was seventeen, and that kind of stuff when you're a teenager does damage.

I think part of the reason Riley never believed I loved him was because of what happened between me and Angel, and I hate that I did that to him. He was a really good guy and deserved better than that, and ... he's married now, so I guess he got it. And we're still friends so ... I guess that counts for something.

Riley's just saved me in more ways than anyone will ever know, and I'm really glad that he's still in my life, willing to work with me when I need it.

But in the end ... I'm worried that it will always be Angel, and that we'll just wind up destroying each other.

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[He knows better than to pry right now. Instead, he nods, and decides to just... leave it, for the moment. He wants to know more, of course—he wants to know everything—but he's never seen Buffy look quite as tired as she does now, and it's a bit unnerving, to say the least.]

I see.

Thank you for explaining. I'll—

...I think I'm going to make some tea. Care to join me?

[kiss_evilgoodbye]

Yes. Tea sounds ... good.

[so long as they don't have to talk about her? She would go with him to the moon]